Untapped

Har waqt har chij batayi nahi jati na, kuch aisa hi silsila filhal mere sath hai. Jo expect kiya usse kayi jyada mila but tum nahi mile, kitna dhunda tumhe, kitni mannate ki, roj subah umeed se uthi par kahi na kahi tum gumshuda the. Kisse jakar kahu ki mera samay mujhe chod kar chala gaya hai, ye baat har kisi se bas ki nahi hai. Nahi ye kahani hai na kisi kahani ka shirsh ye to bas kuch dabe jajbat hai hai jo kahe na kahi jaye aur samjhi bhi na jaye. Kitni baar to mein khud in chijo ko nahi samjhna chati, kyu samjhu, kyu mangu mein koi aur dua jab tum pure na ho sake.
Us din ke baad mujhe nind nahi ayi, aaj bhi tun najar ate ho, tumhe odha safed kafan yad ata hai, tum yad ate ho. Aaj bhi nahi manti ki tum na rahe, paas to ho mehsus bhi hote ho par jab mujhe duniya ko dikhana hota hai ki we mere sath na khele kyuki mere sath tum ho tab har man jati hu, kayi baar koshis ki ki tumhe jinda rakhu par ho nahi paya, itna asan thodi hai jhut bolna, mehnat lagti hai aur waise mehnat tumne karni sikhayi nahi. Dard hota hai akela bhi lagta, kehne ko wo sari ajib ajib si feeling hoti hai, han yaar sab ki sab wo bhi ek sath. Jati hi nahi. Kya ajib sa dard hai ye samjh me bhi nahi ata aur bhulaye bhi nahi bhulta, mehsus karti hu mein ek ek bund us dard ki, uske age kuch aur nahi sambhalta mujhse ajkal. Na bhagvan pe bharosa raha na tum par aur jab tum hi na rahe to mera wajood to khatre me hoga hi.

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